Control
He's let me out again. I'd be ecstatic about being able to run
wild, except that I'm only free because he needs me. He only lets
me out when he needs me.
He says it's because I'm the stronger one, but if that were true I
wouldn't have to wait on his whims. I understand more, but he's
the aggression behind my attacks.
Sometimes I even wonder how much of me is left. I have his form
and his voice, and his malice too, even if none realize it. My own
is still there, but why would I want to destroy his friends? They
mean nothing to me. He would be nothing to me, except for his
control.
So he wants to ingratiate himself to the boy with the Puzzle and he
uses me. "Death is better than being controlled by an evil spirit."
And then he pulls me back.
Again.
If I were truly in control he would never have survived that, even if
it meant pretending to be him all the time. Instead I was locked
up again, while he uses me as an excuse.
What would I want with that little brat? He used my power to kill
the guards, thrilling to the destruction all the while, and made the
others believe that I wanted technology. What for? I
wouldn't know how to use it.
So he's let me out again. Someone stole the Puzzle. He'd do
it himself if he didn't believe me when I tell him that the boy needs to
have it.
Power. It's all what you make of it. With my power I can do
anything I want. Except free myself of him. And his power is
to control me.
Which way do I go? What do I do? I'm the one who finds the
way, but he's the one who decides. And then he acts like a friend
to the boy while I'm told what to do with the piece we've found.
When the door opens, who will get the power behind it? I want it,
but somehow I think he'll cheat me out of that as well. So I find
myself hoping, as I leave the burning building, running away from the
boy who's the key to it all because I have no choice, because the one
who controls me is afraid. I find myself hoping that he'll be
cheated of the power too. That the boy who is the key will find a
way to cheat us all and keep it for himself.
Because the death that would come from that is better than being
controlled.
Disclaimer: I don't own Yuugiou.
